Everything is so hard
why am i here
what is the point in trying
all these emotions
nothing makes sence
i cant stop crying
everythings a mess
the only thought i understand
is i need you back again
i cant believe
i let you go
even if it was long ago
what i didnt know then
and i really know know
is you are my reason
i havnt held a blade in way too long
thanks to you.
ive had urges but ive fought them down
thanks to you.
i have a reason to live again
thanks to my best friend
your closer to me now
than ever before
even if your not here
your always on my mind
thoughts of you drive away temptation
because i know you want better for me
you dont know how hard it is not to cut
it sounds so dumb but its been my way for too long
its like an addiction
but now im trying to quit.
my emotions screaming at me,
i cant silence them like i used to
now i listen, i see, im no longer blind
i never needed to do that, but now i cant stop.
im trying for you. alot of effort i know its not wasted,
youve always been here for me
even after i pushed you away,
you dont know it yet,
your the reason for my life.
you are my anti-death.
