Is it normal to be so sad?
to have to put on a front every day?
i know its normal to cry...
but to feel like you have to?
almost every night?
or to have bright pink marks on the insides of your wrists...
or even bright red lines?
just to get out your pain...
or...maybe to prove to yourself just how much your hurting.
i need to cry.
NOW.
i can't keep pretending to be strong.
and as hard as i try to cry...
to just let it all out...
i cant.
I'm crumbling under the surface
and nobody can see it but me
nobody can help me.
i don't need it - i don't want it - I'm fine.
if i keep telling myself that...
maybe I'll believe it...and I'll be strong again.
but after a while...
I'll break under the pressure,
once again.
