4 years

As the days draw closer,
and the nights slowly fade.
I realize that its almost been 4 years,
how do i feel? i really don't know...

I still want you here walking beside me,
you are the one person that i could really talk to..
i could tell u anything, and you would always be there to talk to.

I think of you quite a bit,
and still blame myself.
Its hard not to.

I want to tell you i love you everyday,
but your not there.
I want you to watch him grow up,
I want you to be there for my 21st birthday.

and knowing you wont be there is going to be hard.
i have a picture of you on my fridge,
i look at it everyday sometimes i talk to you..
do you hear it?

sometimes i want to scream,
cos i blame myself..
no one cares one knows...

how can no one remember the day u died but i,
nor the time..
I love you with all my heart!
4 years and still no closer to come to terms with what happened!!!

love you beautiful xoxox