I tried to find excuses but nothing lets me forgive myself, absolutely nothing... I still cant tell him... how could I make it up to him when he doesnt even know how angry I am at myself for doing such an incomparably stupid thing to him when I know I love him so much, and I hid it for so long when I shouldve told him, how stupid I feel, he doesnt know� he'll never know because of my mistake the love of my life has removed himself from me but Ill always love him and always pray at night and tell him in my thoughts how terrible of a person I am and how I wish I didnt let it happen to us, how we split so fast because of one faulty, how I wish I had u back in my arms and how I wish, jus how I wish you'd come back.. I dont know what to do now; you were always the best part of me, and nothing in this world can replace what kinda of love youve brought to me and how happy I was to be with u, no one can take your spot in my heart. But Ive seen now you dont want me for what Ive done it wont matter how sorry I am or how angry I am at myself, youve moved on from me and now trying to walk away is the hardest part because I know u wont follow.. He is my life yet Ive cheated on him, what a lifetime mistake I have jut made, I'll apologize in every way and sort u deserve a whole lot better. My husband is gone </3
