The Daughter of Disease

by jescelle   Apr 17, 2010


This poem is dedicated to all those who struggle with a parent with bipolar, depression, or any other mental illness. Enjoy.

"Why would they give up on her?",
I cry with all my might.
Anger doesn't mean you leave,
And family doesn't smite.

Maybe they don't understand.
Or care enough to try.
But I've seen them fall from failed attempts,
In crumpled piles; cry.

So much pain unmasks its form,
When she's naked to the world.
An unveiled view, heart black and blue,
A wilting flower; twirled.

Blocked and kept from loving her,
The screams that no one heard.
As she turned into a crying monster,
Bleeding and disturbed.

She'll run in no direction,
So accomplished in her speed.
In one place too long again,
If she has to go, proceed.

Many a time she's made me dizzy,
Dancing with my heart.
But a ballerina on a roller coaster,
Cannot perfect her art.

All the while here I am,
Trying to be loved.
But to understand the task at hand;
It's harder when your shoved.

The raging fire that I walk through,
And the hatred of the burn.
For the love of pain and agony,
But too late at every turn.

I try to be the savior,
Although bitterness consumes.
I lose her to the ash and smoke,
And still smell her perfume.

She killed the private memories,
Compassion left behind.
Ignored the will to fight, fell,
And slowly lost her mind.

She tore away from all our love,
And the trust was left in ash.
She's hardened by the broken life,
And jumpy from the crash.

How am I to fill the void,
That never should have been?
The only one who clearly sees,
But can't see it again?

Seconds tick to this conclusion,
The answer shatters glass.
Once I put it all together,
It broke in it's contrast.

There is no way to fix her,
And it's not my fight to win.
I didn't cause her agony,
And I cannot heal her sin.

She's killing what she needs to be,
And I won't wait forever.
For a butterfly with a broken wing,
Refusing to get better.

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  • 14 years ago

    by Karl Wild GG23

    A bit long and it seemed a little bit forced at times. I like the rhyme and flow but some of the words were just a bit strange. I would try not to use the word "But" so much in your work it kind of gets old after a while.... takes away from the flow of your piece. All in all it wasn't terrible, but a couple touch-ups would makei t better.... nicely done :)

  • 14 years ago

    by Lana

    There was so much emotion in this verse. A long one yes but, well worth the read.

  • 14 years ago

    by Danielle

    I haven't read anything from you in so long!! It was awesome as always... So effective and deep, emotional, moving... U always are though! I'm so glad to see you still write. I haven't wrote anything in such a long time! I'm havin a baby in August and it just got away from me. I hope you haven't forgotten me love!!!

  • 14 years ago

    by Lemma

    This poem conveys so many emotions so clearly; anger, loneliness, frustration, pain, helplessness. I had a friend who suffered from bi-polar depression a little over a year ago now so I understand the effect it has on the people around them and whilst the emotions in this poem may seem to some to be mixed and confused, that's exactly what it felt like to me. Some days I'd be angry with him for not accepting the help he was asking for, others I'd pity him for what he was going through. I don't think there's a problem with the length of the poem as it flows well and therefore retains the reader's interest. There were a lot of lines that stood out to me, especially the imagery in the last two lines. My favourite stanza overall was this one:

    There is no way to fix her,
    And it's not my fight to win.
    I didn't cause her agony,
    And I cannot heal her sin.

    It's really effective in showing how even though none of this is your fault and you can't fix it, you want to do something. It's helplessness defined.

    5/5 for an emotional write I can really relate to.

  • 14 years ago

    by Allanah Asphyxia

    Amazing piece. I loved it all!
    5/5

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