This burden growing within me...Unwillingly conceived...
and I live with the memories every time its heart beats...
and now my heart races- with HIV in my veins.
What happened to the idea of letting freedom reign???
Because I am a prisoner in this life...Destined for eternal strife.
Fighting this disease is a battle of its own,
Throw in a forced pregnancy, and it is impossible to fight alone.
What should I do??? Save one or save none???
This battle is obviously impossible to be won.
If I chose to keep the baby, we both would surely succumb,
but if i choose to let it go, that would be less dumb.
Why torture a child with such a disabling hindrance?
We get a chance at life...So where's my baby's chance?
His chance at happiness and not dealing with this stress.
My baby deserves more...more than outcomes sprawn from the sin of this world.
My baby deserves the best...So I give him to The Lord.
- Love, A Broken Mother
(the childless father...its the flip side to this story...check it out!!!) p.s. not about me!!!
