Words Of My Heart

Lost and confused by my choice
Wanted to make things better and lost my voice
Crushed by confusion as to if it was the right thing
Do not want the hurt that life will bring
With every tear I cry the more it hurts
How long will this confusion hurt?
I know it had to be done
Change had to be made and no other way could it of been done
Looking at the clock lost and lonely as ever
I thought it was the right thing just hope it will not last forever
What else was there to do
I tried so hard everyday and it all came unglued
Right before my eyes I had to crush a heart
The only thing I could do before we would of started to drift apart
Only for the benefit of both hearts and souls
Could not keep mending the holes
Not living in regret but confusion and hurt
I hope it is just a spurt
I made the ultimate sacrifice to make way for change
Now just hoping it wont get blown back in my face
They keep telling me not to go back
But I find it hard to not feel this knife I placed in his back
This knife that I found as the only way
This knife was the only thing I knew how to say
Not to hurt anyone but to make things better
Before they got worse and there was no way to make it better.
Hoping things will find a way
But until that day
I will continue to care for you
And I will continue to remain true just not to you.

~Tyfani .K.~