Halfway Gone (title is inspired by lifehouse's song.)

I think about all the things I've
been through, telling myself that
it was all just a challenge I
had to face.

I'll admit I was never brave
enough to get over anything.
I'd taken all this crap day by day,
not thinking of the outcomes.

I ran away from the things I
couldn't handle; erased them
from my mind.
I was losing time.

I want to run, I want to scream
and chase away the damned
demons that won't leave me alone,
walk out that door.

I can't find a reason to get better
because maybe I wasn't meant to
get better from this.
Maybe I'll die with this.

I'm done with being patient
and I'm starting to fall apart.
Reach into my throat and
rip my heart out; I'm finished.