Isn't break up suppose to be the end of the chapter of a love story?
isn't break up suppose to be a new start for our own lives?
as badly it turned in the end
injure and hurt from the outcome
the scars don't vanish easy
writing so heavy and hard on my keyboard
i could swear my hands hurt from each letter to you
put on a fake face when i go to school
laughing as if everything alright
cracking jokes like a jester in the court
people laugh at me
i laugh at myself
when the day ends
i return home alone
in a empty car that doesn't have a passenger beside me
even the journey home feels ice cold
turning on my computer
watching it slowly turn on
logging onto my account
writing about how much i love you
finishing each master piece
torn and still left with million words unsaid
i take a break from all this
standing outside my doorway
lighting cigarette drug that makes things hard to quit
turn on that mellow tune of music
and slowly breath my troubles away
as the song start to pick up
same with the tears in my eyes
i broke down for no reason
I'm crying as if i lost a love one
maybe it's weak heart
or maybe it's heart break
your name turns me to stone
I'm losing my mind i can tell
every place we been
i see you
every girl at school reminds me of you
the long hair
innocent smile
the cloth of a angel
i know this must be a sickness
because i feel like I'm dreaming right now
hoping what happen between us never happen
but i wake up each day
still here
never there
i tell others i moved on
but now I'll tell you this
i still love you
more than i ever did
my life isn't the same anymore without you
i know i still love you
because i can't let go of my past
i can't delete those text messages on my phone
i still celebrate the day we first got together
with your birthday still left a mark my mind
still wearing the ring that once bonded us together
and also
I'm still writing about how much i love you
it's a shame you will never see these poems
it's a bummer my words are left for the world to see
but not you
I'm sorry for being this way
i wish one day you could understand
that i still love you so much
