Whats the Deal

Keeping it astounding
Well that's what I shoot for
I'm not sure yet
Exactly what I'm looking for

I feel myself changing
So many things left to score
I'm not sure whats happening
Or what it is for

Scared to love
Scared to live
No I want those things
Maybe just scared to believe

I know its there
I feel it all over again
I've let down my resistance
After so long

Once again
And I said I'd never
Feel for someone
This strong

All of the things
I wouldn't do for the last
I guess I left those ways
In my past

Because I do it all now
Put my heart on the line
As scarey as it is
I'm finally voicing my emotions

Scared as hell
But feels so real
Someone tell me whats the deal..
Damn