Masquerade

Have we got a problem?
Because at night my soul cries
Are we truly fine?
Or has your
Lonely heart died?

So many questions
Have you got the answers for them?
I may have the answers
Buried deep within my consciousness

At the moment though
I'm just lost for words
Feeling emotionless
Reading your cracked lips

Even if I wanted to
I can't hear you
I'm afraid if I was able to
Poisonous language would flow
Like a deadly symphony
From my poetic lips

So here I'm sat,
Watching you ramble on
About this or maybe about that
Oh someone please release me??
From this mindless chat

Sometimes you repeat yourself
About the pain you've been through
Well that was in the past
And I'm sick of hearing it

That's why I feel so emotionless
My soul has died
Because of all the pain
That has been left inside

What has happened to my life?
To make me feel like this again
I've paid my dues
Still l'm being left to rot
Feeling alone, battered
And psychologically bruised

But I hide it all away
That's why I don't snap back
When you insult me
My feelings aren't for show

You think everything's okay
Well this has been going on
For years and years
I just disguise my pain
Behind clown like tears
Which nobody see's

I know that we will never be fine
You just do everything behind a masquerade
Pretending to be happy
With you though
The whole thing is staged

Have we got a problem?
Because at night my soul cries
Are we truly fine?
Or has your
Lonely heart died?

So many questions
Have you got the answers for them?
I may have the answers
Buried deep within my consciousness

Here we go again
Reading your cracked lips
I feel ever so numb
Bounded by my emotions
Yet feeling so empty

Watching you flick through
A fortnightly magazine
Reading a sob story
Written by some hapless teen

Why do I want to know their pain?
When I've got my own
You should look closer
At your family's problems back home

You say you love me
You say you care
I don't think so

That's why I feel so emotionless
My soul has died
Because of all the pain
That has been left inside

What has happened to my life?
To make me feel like this again
I've paid my dues
Still l'm being left to rot
Feeling alone, battered
And psychologically bruised

So here you find me
Another life wasted
But that's nothing
Compared to
All the faceless tears I've tasted

By Jay Basey © 2009