The Past Will Stay In The Past.

Strength; To hold my head high.
Why do I have this urge to cry?
Im falling on my face.
Why after all this time am I standing in the same place?
I cant say that I am strong-
Because if I was then this pain would be gone.
I cant forget, Its impossible for me.
Why is that so hard for you to believe?
Mabe it just takes time, mabe i'll finally realize-
I am better off without you in my life.
Im not happy; But im not sad..
Im just kind-of lost, I miss what we had.
Im starting to have nightmares, Im really scared.
I want you to finally realize, our love is still there.
I wake up in the middle of the night, screaming out your name.
I miss you so much, I know your decision will never change.
Would you even care, if I were to suddenly die?
Would you even care, if I purposly ended my life?
Im not really gunna, because honestly that isnt me.
Im not going to die over something small, like you not loving me.
I might break down, and I might cry..
But I do believe there is so much more to life.
Do you remember, all the good times we had?
Our first kiss, first touch, the first time you held my hand?
These things I cant forget, I cant let go..
And baby; I dont regret anything we ever did, no.
From hating you, to wanting you back.-
From loving you,- to wanting to kick your ass.
I've felt it all, I've been to the wall.
Now you probably thing Im so weird,
I know that you will never want me back.
I guess I'll have to get use to the fact, that your love was never true.
I guess i'll have to get use to the fact, that ill never again hear you say "I love you too."