I wish I had you back.

I wish it was still the real you that I knew.

But I know a demon now controls you,
Taking over your mind, your body, your soul... every part of you.

But I just don't want to believe your gone.

Everyone that loves you, you no longer care for.

Giving up everything that you could have going for you.

Suppressing myself in memories of just you and me and what could have been is killing me more and more each night,
Making me realize how stupid I was for letting someone like you go.

All you wanted was for me to love you like you loved me.

Do you still love me?

If I showed up at your door with a gun to my head. You answered the door and found me dead...
Note in my hand that said, Dear S......, I'm sorry it has to end this way. I miss and love you so much. -C.J.

What would you do?

How would you feel?

Would you even care at all?

Would I see you again someday?

Would I hear more than, "Take kare?"

Will I be alone forever now?

All I want is you again.

I miss us.

I miss you.

I love you.