This isn't who i want to be
But I'm accepting it
I want to talk
There is no time
I keep holding more inside
I love to cut
It releases all my mistakes
I just cant control my life
I promise myself months ago i was done
No more words
No more complaining
I need to at least pretend i was happy
No more placements
I just need to stabilize my own life
I know what i need
I'm sure one day i can pick everything up
This is my home now
I am not leaving
No more goodbye
No more pain
No more hurt
Just me being all alone
Dreams don't come true
You can keep wishes
But thats only in movies
Not this thing were all fighting called life
They say monsters don't exist
They do
Thats what trained my life around
If i just believed
If i just opened up my eyes
I might of had a chance
They say things are pretend
If i didn't listen
Maybe i would of been through so much
Struggling to make it
They say its over
Then please tell me whats happing everyday?
I'm sick of excuses
I'm tired and weak
Just let it all be over
I want a new life
