The life I lead is not as it seems
happiness is only found in my dreams
A heart filled with anger
how I wish I was stronger
as my hands start to shake
I'm filled with this heartache
my heart begins to race
this disgust I want to erase
the mind is clouded
with these signs, I know where I'm headed
with this feeling in my chest, this numbness
my eyes see nothing but blackness
I've never hated something so much as myself
everyone tells me its wrong to harm ones self
I'm disgusted and disappointed
feeling so livid
my body deserves every bruise, every scar
I reach into my dresser drawer
reaching for my outlet
this is one cut, I won't regret
