Some use pain as a relief of emotion,
but I hate even the thought of pain,
is that why I rely on u so much,
like a bad habit coming back 4 more and more,
only to be let down yet again,
why I cant I see the darkness that's clouding around my heart and common sense all in one motion,
I'm in need of release,
and I feel as if its never coming,
everlasting yearning and need for something,
I cant retrieve but not smart enough as to not fall of the edge of insanity,
my mind is racing,
heart falling apart at the seams,
can u save me from disaster clear from the storm I'm
harboring deep inside,
do u care as much to ask whats patronizing me,
and forces me to act this way,
as not to have a care in the world,
Yet inside my world is slowly crashing,
and no one can piece it back together,
not even u,
this must come to decease,
I fear I might go mad,
I'm alive yet vacant,
searching for my place and where I fit in,
is there a place like this,
has to be something but the more I think,
the more i get lost in my own captivity,
my center, damaged, heal me,
I'm the worst case scenario, fix me,
I don't feel I have eternity for my escape to reach me, tears flooding the inside, but I cant let them surface, how will I look to you,
weak, I know but I am weak,
and at times vulnerable,
Masked with the deception of strength,
I'm sure u think I'm close to picture perfect,
yet, if u cared to look deeper,
you would see it differently,
I wonder if u hear my cry for help and just move forward,
I'm slipping slowly, please pull me from this atmosphere,
be my great escape...
