REAL TITLE! Feelings, Emotions. They only cause pain...I'm hurt. Is it only an illusion?
I feel like i don't matter,
I feel like i don't existe,
That i don't make a dam*n difference.
You don't seem to care if im here for the long haul or not.
You don't have faith.
You don't believe.
What happened to the innocent child in you?
in me?
I got it stolen, its gone, forever.
yet it still seems like im here, trying.
Trying my hardest not to cry.
I think of why.
Why me?
Why now?
Why do u do certain things?
I don't believe you when you say you care.
I don't believe anything that comes out of your mouth anymore.
I don't know who to trust anymore.
All i desire for is a little protection.
A little direction.
Maybe even a little affection.
I don't think this "thing" between us is working,
not for the right reasons.
Call it quits?
Well that's up to your next move.
Don't be stupid.
Don't be safe.
Do what you want,
not what you think.
No games.
Don't hide.
Did i make the wrong decision?
Did i choose wrong?
Did i just loose the most important person in my life?
Forever?
I miss him.
Does he miss me?
Probably not.
He doesn't care anymore either.
Am i just not supposed to be cared for?
Struggle on my own?
Find my own way?
Stumbling through the forest.
i thought that was enough.
I need some help.
Someone who understands.
But he's already gone,
i've pushed him away.
I'm sorry...
Do i deserve to live?
Should i stay?
Theres nothing here for me.
Is anything worth it?
Am i worth it for somebody?
Apparently not.
I miss you daddy,
though i don't know u,
only about u.
Regardless the bad.
i still care.
Why do i care so much?
It only gets me into trouble.
Causes me pain.
Forces actions.
Kills me from inside.
So heres my question to all.
Why the fck are we here?
Whats my purpose?
Why don't others care as much as i?
Grow up.
i had to,
you can do it to.
Be responsible,
Don't fck around.
it's not worth it.
Neither is love.
i know someone who thinks that.
i'm still undecided.
I still have my faith.
Even as broken as i am, i still love...
