Mistakes

What hurts is that you loved me,
And I didn't see it through all the smiles
And all the kisses
And warm embraces
I DIDN'T SEE IT.

And I lost you
The best thing that happened
This is my biggest regret
You made me smile when no one else could
And there are so many things I should
Have said
All these things running through my head.

Lying lonely in my bed
No more cuddling
Or holding
Or kissing
It's almost like you died

What did you see in the future when we were together?
Before we didn't talk
Before I had walked
Before you moved
Before I made the mistake.
Did you see me?

I saw you.
And I still see you.
Even though I know we will never be back together
Because you love "her"
And because I screwed all this shit up.

every time I think about it I just want to die
And when you told me that you didn't want me taking all those pills
As you held me in my bed

These thoughts
These thoughts
Clouding my troubled head.
I just want to be with you
But there's no point because you love "her".