I was so scared
i felt so much
i didn't understand
the feelings that i so strongly felt
i had to get away
run as far as i could
as far as the world would let me
to get away from this pain
its so wrong
such a sin
these feelings i feel
deep down for you
you held me in your arms
a night so perfect
felt so right
i don't want to let you go
but i didn't understand
i knew i couldn't
you asked me to lie
but i knew you wanted the opposite
i couldn't take it
i had to do something
to break the spell
the hold you held on me
i ran to him to get away
i ran to him to take it all away
i thought it would make me think right
make me believe this lie
that i need to believe
that i thought would make every thing alright
but in the end
i found the truth
because in his arms i thought of you
and pain to my heart it brought
because what i did to run away
hurt you more than you can say
i broke and i snapped
I'm lost and confused
because those feelings i felt
the ones i gave to him
were meant to be yours
for you
but now you question
now you wonder
you don't believe
and i don't blame you
i want to take it back
iv never wanted something so much more
i need to make it alright
i cant stand the pain your in
I'm sooo soooo sorry
and i feel like a fool
because thats all that i can say
i want to take it all back
close my eyes and make it disappear
if only i could
because now you done
you've had enough
and i understand
but i cant help it
i want you so bad
i need you soo strongly
but iv let you down
shown you who I'm not
but now you believe thats who i am
and convincing you other wise is impossible
you are amazing
your so angry
but yet you thought of me
and still put me first
you couldn't hurt me
your the best
and u deserve better
i understand now
why u don't want me there
but I'm not gone
letters you will receive
one last promise
that i know you don't believe
you had my heart
you have my heart
I'm not going anywhere
even though i hurt you worse of all
i pray that one day
one hour
one minute
a second in time
that you will believe me
that this is no lie
believe the words that really are the truth
believe what i have been ignoring
for ohh so long
they burn on my tongue
with longing to say
the words i have held back
the three letter word
that holds my heart
that describes you
"i love you"
