Here I sit, feet in the water, watching the sun rise above the trees. My mind is racing, so fast even I cannot keep up. I know I should be sleeping, but thoughts of you are keeping me awake. A few weeks is all it has been, still we have not met. The miles that separate us, too great at a time like this. We have not met, but I cannot help myself. I am falling hopelessly in love with you. This goes against everything, breaks all the rules. But I have fallen too far, far too fast. I am at a loss for words. You stole my heart before I could protest. I couldn't even see it happening. Don't get me wrong. I want you to have my heart, I want to have yours in return. But how can it work? We come from different worlds. I cannot ask you to leave yours for me, but I am not sure I am ready to give mine up for yours. I have so many plans, hopes, dreams. I cannot just toss them to the wind. Nor can I ask you to throw away your own. Love is so wonderful, why must it be so hard? So here I sit, once again, wishing on every shooting star. Sleep will not come to me tonight. Anxiously I await your call, dreading it at the same time. I will fall even harder after hearing your voice again. But I cannot help myself. The sound of your voice brightens even the darkest of nights. The rain is starting to fall. A soft, gentle rain, just enough to hide these tears, quietly tracing patterns down my face. Wiping them away, I regain composure. Just enough to make it through the day, to hide my breaking heart.
