The moment the blade touches my skin,
All my feelings come out from within,
The blood stained blade and face covered in tears,
It's late at night that I face all my fears.
Memories pass through my mind,
I really wish I could leave them behind,
I don't really know how I feel,
Everything thats going on, just doesn't seem real.
The more I cut, the worse I feel,
But why can't I stop? This shouldn't be real.
I don't get the same release, like I did before,
I don't know whats wrong with me, I can't take this anymore.
It's ugly and wrong, the scars I can see,
Why on earth, did I do this to me?
Talking doesn't help, it doesn't set me free.
Why the hell can't I just let things be?
I don't know what I should do,
I really don't want to lose you.
But I don't think I can hide it anymore,
The things I do behind closed doors.
I wish I could go back, and change what I've done,
Because lately things just haven't been fun.
I've lost the people I thought would never leave,
Now there's even more cuts under my sleeve.
I don't know where I should begin,
But I feel so insecure, in my own skin.
I don't like to admit it, but I swear its true,
You're the reason I feel like I do.
I don't know why, but I've felt like this for awhile,
It's getting harder to fake a smile.
I always get the feeling, I'm going to fall a part.
I don't know what to do, I don't know where to start.
I have a problem with trusting my friends,
I don't know why, but I really want this to end.
I've had enough and I don't know what else to do,
I thought I was strong, but I'm not the same without you.
*none of this probably makes sense but its just how i feel*
