The Pain Of Love

I say i dont want it,
that it isint for me.
and anyone who tries to give it,
i do what i can to make them leave.

but deep down in my heart,
i just want to fall in love.
i want to give them my all,
and put nothing above.

music use to save me,
but now it rips apart my soul.
because music isint enough,
when all you want is someone to hold.

when i was little,
i had dreamed up this plan.
where i was independant,
and on my own two feet i would stand.

but through the cracks of this dream,
i saw this light peaking through.
on the other side of that wall,
is what would make my dream untrue.

so i kick and i scream,
i cry and i fight.
to keep away the world,
that i can see through that light.

i cant let it happen,
so i continue to push and shove.
because i cant survive the pain,
of being in love.