Stranded within her own nostalgic thoughts
looking off into the distance as if it holds the answers to her pain
hungering for the love he used to show
knowing even if they could go back it would still end the same
fighting to get a hold of the soul she used to have within her
loosing the battle for the humanity he took along with everything else
there are no what ifs and what could have been's
there is only pain and the love she felt
now there is nothing to be done
as the tears fall forgotten to the floor
as she tries to block out the memory
of the day he walked out the door
as if she had conjured him from the air
she feels his fingers brush her face
a caress so filled with love
she cant help but turn into it though she knows it is fake
she finds herself going mad
no longer able to decipher what is real and what lives only in her head
she does everything she can just to breathe
tearing off her clothes as she curls up on her bed
another lonely night
just the memory of his touch
just a whisper of warmth as the past rips her apart
she knows she will never again know the passion of his love
and as she fights to go on
as the days fade to years
she knows that he will never leave her heart
and every morning of every day for the rest of her life, she will glimpse the beauty through a film of unshed tears..
