Lose Yourself

No one understands me as I fall to the ground
My heart is breaking with each thump and each pound

It all started back when my life was so great
I had the one I loved and I made no mistakes

But once it all shattered I fell to the floor
And I did not regret all I wanted was more

The pain that I craved was beginning to be
Everything that made me feel free

My head was spinning and I felt like a mess
I wanted to sleep and felt more than less

The bones that would jut from the cave of my waist
Was almost as bad as the blood I could taste

My knuckles were raw and my throat was soar
What was I even living for?

I always felt dizzy and wanted to cry
And I even remember wanted to die

My life was broken, my breathing was patterned
Sadly I had nothing left in my life that mattered

Tears streamed down my pale, white cheeks
And the blood on my lips began to reek

Eyes so blue are black, dark holes
I lost the connection of my soul

But as I lose myself and watch it drain
There is another mark on my heart that stains

In time I know I will slip away
And those around me will begin to say

How I was a tragic, broken child
And I always cried without a smile

Maybe I was just a pretty face
And death was something I liked to chase

Whatever the motive, whatever it was
I can only look back and know it was because

A heart can only withstand so much
You must be tender with every touch

Once I lost the will to look forward
Everything I had and looked towards

Tore apart into dozens of pieces
And everything I had stop and seizes

That is how a person can die
And that is why you say goodbye

A heart is a fragile thing to possess
It makes you insane and very obsessed

Once you are broken you can not go back
You can hear the thumping, stop, then crack

And once they burry you beneath the soil
Know it was you who made your life spoil