Unsolved sense

We've been together for four months
we had great times and still we do
but i need direction and some help
I don't know what i want to pursue

I'm afraid of being lonely
I'm afraid of being tied down
I'm afraid of what life has yet to bring
and I'm afraid my feelings drown

I look for things to be wrong
I do this all the time
One day i think of you so poorly
when in reality you are sublime

The beginning is always delightful
an unbreakable bond it seems to form
over time I get caught up
and my feelings now transformed

I wish life was flawless
but it wouldn't be life if it was
I'd be so rich and happy,
I'd smile just because

what i'm trying to say here
isn't exactly clear to see
I'm lost inside my own world
of depression and debris

I don't know what I want
I don't think I ever did
I came into this uncertain
and my feelings are forbid

I do not want to lose you
never in a millions years
your an awesome person
you are what you appear

I know you want to be with me
Inside I think I do too
I'm just so uncertain
of what might not be true

I hope you understand me
although I "never know"
I know that will I love you
and soon a friendship will grow

- Ana Contreras