Secrets kept for along time turn into the worst heartaches.
ive kept the way I feel about you a secret for the last six years because ive never felt good enough, I want you to know the truth but I cant let those words fall from my tough because you said it yourself, im not your type.
I cant take a heartache worst then this, so I keep it in. the pain in my eyes cant be seen because theyd just ask why.
Nobody can know the way I feel about you because they would know im scared and I dont need my insecurities to be seen by anyone.
I want you so much!
I know I can never ever have you.
You are the boy I first fell in love with and your now the man I love and things are never going to be different are they?
This is always going to be a one way love wont it?
I hate that I love you only for that reason!
I want to hurt myself so bad that I wont wake up, but I know I cant cause thats dumb and youd see the cuts and only wish me away more.
I think the scares on my wrist from the past scare the crap out of you, and you dont want to deal with an emotional disaster, so im trying to get myself together. I wish id just never wake up from one of the amazing dreams I have of you every night.
I wish youd just see how much love I can show you.
id give you what you deserve.
