First love lost wisdom gained

Months of confusion
days of horrible pain
weeks of endless crying
of the broken heart that will remain

how can my heart take this
the burden and the guilt
i don't think i can do this
but my heart is starting to wilt

my love for him is pure
these feelings still remain
but he no longer cares
his neglect is driving me insane

the talk of marriage and children
the passion and the lust
but he cant let me in
so i have to end it i must

his friends don't even know me
i don't know them at all
this secret world this empty space
Ive began to fall

the messages have stopped
the phone calls have faded
its been months since we went out
i feel completely jaded

my heart beats his name
and forever it will I'm sure
but i want to be treated better
i need a little more

so I'm sorry I'm leaving
ill cry as I'm walking away
secretly hoping that you'll change for me
and beg me to stay.