Lemme first say
I never wanted this
In fact
I'm still terrified
Every moment we get closer
I don't need another one
I've had too many of those
I don't want a flimsy
Barely relationship
That's just going to fall apart at the seams
If that's what you intend
Just leave me alone
I don't need the heartache
Are you just shy?
Or do you find me so boring
That I don't deserve
Your glance for more than
A minute
In fact, I don't think we've exchanged
Many words at all
I'm sick of being another plaything
To fondle and hold but to never be known
As who I am, a girl with some stories to tell
Then I think to myself
How naughty of you
Smoking that nasty plant and feeling up leg
Before you even kiss me
I wish I didn't feel like I'm being
Taken advantage of
I wish I could stop thinking
About your soft skin
It would be a self-esteem booster
If you had tried to tell me
That you like me, just a little bit
You're so handsome and I think
You know
I don't want to be hurt anymore
And the tears on my face
Show that I am hurt
Just by the not knowing
Oh I wish this wasn't a game
But in some ways I do
Maybe he's pursuing me
I'm just dreaming though
I wish I didn't feel like a used little girl
I hope that you're thinking about me right now
Even though, I'm almost positive
You're not
Please, just talk to me
I get so desperate and alone
And I wish I didn't
I didn't want this to happen
Now it's just gonna hurt more
That's why I get so desperate
Because I'm scared
I'm desperate not to get hurt
Again
So tonight I will try, so very hard
To forget about that one kiss on the cheek
And the especially the one the lips
I don't want to care about you
Please don't ever leave or just leave me alone
Oh, Thomas
