If ever I could tell you...

If ever I could tell you the way that I feel,
Show you what's broken and the heart that will never heal.
If ever I could make you see that I can't live without,
But even with you around I feel like I've been split apart.

If ever I could tell you that it's always been about you,
You've changed so much it's hard to tell the distant past I knew.
If ever I could express the feelings buried in my heart so deep,
Would you really listen to me and stop the tears I weep.

And every time it's the same old story going round and round again,
Can't take to see myself break apart - not again.
Why's it so hard for you to see things the way I do,
Caught up in your own world making silly excuses I always knew.

Perhaps I was the fool to give my heart away,
Thinking you'd be the one guy that would give me renewed hope each day.
And as I cling silently, tears falling down my face,
I know that nothing will ever be the way it was - it's just a hopeless case.

But why does my heart not see the truth that shines through my eyes,
I knew it was a mistake to come back - all that resounds are lies.
An aching heart will continue to grieve,
The pain so strong it's hard to leave,
Forgetting what once was that will never be.
Perhaps foolish are those that crave for a love,
That duly not respected will break one in half.

It was my mistake, this time round.
I cannot walk back if every word I utter leaves no sound.
False dreams and hopes burnt with every word said,
If this was the way it was going to end then I wish You had not led,
My feet into his direction if all that was meant for me was pain.

Just wash away the memories,
And burn his name from my heart.
I don't want to remember,
It's time to end that which you could never start.