So what I really want to say is...

So what I really want to say is...
Somewhere deep inside there's a picture of you,
Alongside is someone else if only you knew,
That I dream of... A you and me,
That I wish that you could open your eyes to see...

My heart is bleeding and I don't know which way,
How long before it all leads me astray.
I can't help but think of you all day,
There's this empty void that continues to play,
Day and night I really try hard,
Hoping that I won't have to see the way I'm scarred.
Holding onto a dream that may never shine through,
Another distant dreamer lost in another cold sad tune.

Don't you ever wonder what's so wrong?
Why people chase dreams just to try and be strong.
Why scattered remains of broken hearts surround my head,
Why no one seems to gather or listen to what's being said.

It's hard to say what I feel when nothing is ever the same,
Lost in a world that doesn't go further than the games we play.
Every time it's the same old story,
Tired of the scraps you throw at me without any worry.

What more must I do to make you realise,
That I can't seem to live without you - these aren't lies.
How many more times must I tell you what I went through?
How the silence broke me apart changing the person you once knew.

I can't try any longer to make you see what I feel,
How I wish there would be an "us" but there's just you and me.
I can't continue this way when you leave me confused,
Wondering about what I should do - swirling through memories of an old abuse.

It doesn't pay to be the person that I am in this world so sick,
Fighting every time just so you can see me - but it only makes me weak.
Caught up in those dreams that were so easily built,
Watching as it all slowly begins to wilt.

Lacking the love and nourishment it really needs,
You'll never be here and it's just separate ways that greet,
Day and night as I finally realise,
That love is another game that makes you blind.

A disease tormenting the soul till you can no longer sleep,
Whispering past memories that only make you weep.
What life is there to live when every broken heart,
Starts one way so happy but then it falls apart.

What is the point of loving you when it only leaves me to grieve?
You never once saw me - never once saw the real me!!!