Suicide Note

I do not understand,
What life has in store,
Always an empty hand,
Thrown upon the floor,
Grasping for the tears,
That fall from my eyes,
But all I get are fears,
It's myself I despise,
Wishing for sweet nothings,
That's what it seems,
I am wishing on that something,
That are remains of broken dreams,
Reaching for the hope,
I never could quite touch,
How can I cope?,
The pain is all too much,
Running through my veins,
Deep into my heart,
Stabbing with the pains,
Since the day I fell apart,
Broken down and weak,
Death has crossed the line,
Never finding what I seek,
A star has lost its shine,
So as I decide to leave,
Let my soul run free,
No one will grieve,
No one will ever miss me,
So kill me softly,
slit my throat,
Blood drips hotly,
On this suicide note.