I Miss You

As much as I try to forget you
I miss you with all of my heart
I try to push away thoughts of you
and circle around to the start

As much as I try to move on
I miss you and everything you are
as much as I try to bare this
I see you when I see every star

As much as I try to fight it
I cannot control my mind
I cannot control my body
or thinking of you all the time

As much as I love someone else
is as much as I love you more
and all of my love is waiting
some you never felt before

As much as I want you back
is as much as you hurt me so deep
feeling this love that I miss you
so intense that I cannot sleep

As much as we have been through
is more then couples ever know
understanding another's soul
on a level nobody would go

As much as I do not cry
is as much as I wish I could
which is as much as I wish you loved me
which I know that you never would

As much as the ghost of your touch
creeps through the window as the wind
and touches me so roughly
that it feels as though I sinned

As much as I wish for your kisses
I need to leave the past
because my wounded heart is bleeding
and it does not heal very fast.

As much as I need you now
to hold me close and warm
I feel our love all around
like an endless growing storm

I miss you,
I was blind and I could not see
that everything you are
is everything I find within me.