Giving Up

Emotions tumble about
Fear rooted deep within the soul
Animosity directed towards my own reflection
Something I have never been able to console

Darkness the only comfort left
Hopelessness the only constancy
Void wish I could not feel
Disappointment ramped in who I see

Embarrassed for myself
For my selfish plight
Sullen withdrawn
Will anything ever go right

People disappoint
And only a fool would trust
Humanity so flawed
Purity motivated by lust

Love without restrictions
Peace without reprieve
Escape from the haunting
Contained unable to leave

Rock bottom a luxury to hit
Feigning to shatter my very core
Utter disbelief
I continue to endure more and more

Stepping aimlessly about
As the blind guide
Time is against me
Misery on my side

Stuck in this forever
Realization tear ducts erupt
Time is endless
So I chose to give up
-Jay-