As the days go by,
I start to doubt my decision,
Should I have taken you back?
I want things to work out,
But I'm constantly tormented by what you kept from me,
You kept quiet about her for so long,
How can I trust anything you say?
If you lied again and again about her existence,
Making up story after story,
To then only confirm the truth,
That I myself had to find out,
I no longer see her number on the phone bill,
But did she change it to continue to keep in touch?
Or is it her who shows up as one "blocked incoming call"?
Theres not a day that my mind is at peace,
It goes over and over again what happened,
The hundreds of text messages sent and received between you both,
The phone calls made right after I kissed you goodbye for work,
You must have anxiously wanted to be away from me to call her,
To see how her day was starting off,
To see what she was up to?
Or at least thats what I want to believe the converstation consisted of,
Ill never know if you ever told her "I miss you,
Ill never know If you ever told her "We should meet up"
Ill never know if you ever told her "I like you"
"Your hot,sexy, desirable,"
These "I'll never knows"keep me from smiling,
I want to hurt you as bad as you hurt me,
You dont deserve me.
