I cant remember the last time i was happy,
all i remember are the times i was sad
i wish that i could change the feelings,
that maybe back then i once had
all i feel in my heart right now
are the things i regret and wonder how
how we slipped away and how we fell apart
i hate all this pain and sadness in my heart
i wish i could stop crying and be happy once again
but i see that will never happen this heart just won't mend.
at a point in my life i thought you were the one
the one i would be with until we both passed on
but i was very wrong about every choice i made
in making you the one... i wish i hadn't stayed..
stayed around hoping that you would change
but clearly it did no good i realize now the mistake i made
maybe if you were honest and loyal to me
i wouldn't be leaving you right now, i would still be happy
with all the lies you told and all the many plans
all i ever wanted was love and for you to be a man,
but now im left picking up the pieces from this broken wall
that you tore down as you sat there and watched me fall
i cant keep living as if everything is ok
when everytime im home alone
i wish i could escape.
escape from this unhappy and depressing life
hating that i had to impress your family
just to survive
survive all the crticism and destructive words..
that they would give me everyday
destroying my self-worth
i know that im not perfect
and i don't live to be
but everytime im around them
i just want to leave
i know that i should try and make ends meet
with me and you and your parents
but that will never be
its best that i leave and go on my way
and live the happy life ive wanted, and have been struggling for everyday
dont want you to think that its all because of you
cause this is my decision, problems? i have a few
i know that its been hard living with me day to day
i dont want to cause you hurt and i dont wanna see your pain
this is my way of letting you know
that ive always loved you....
something ive always tried to show
i hope that you go on and please just let me go
you will be okay this i know
it might hurt awhile but you will get through
just turn to the ones that have always been there for you
so live your life and live it well
never go unhappy this is my farewell.
