Make me cry with memories
Days long past too far out of reach
If I could would I go back?
But there is no place for that question
Do not waste your life
Regretting things you can't change
And yet my head fills with the life
I didn't live yesterday
These old photographs of me smiling
If they had only known those were the only times I smiled
Where have I gone these past years?
What remains now, If only I could see where I was headed.
When was the last time I truly smiled?
Where it wasn't forced or fake?
When was my last laugh that didn't cover sadness?
I can't remember a time.
What will it take for me to get out of this miserable emotional cliche?
So many uncertainties not enough answers.
Time won't fix this, won't fix me.
No vacation is long enough to rejuvenate my spirit.
I am a weary, old, and battle worn soul,
Trapped in the body of a young woman.
There is nothing I can do that will change this fact.
So I arrive again, where I started.
