To My Dad, R.I.P

When i was younger you told me to be strong
when i was in need i knew you would come along.
when i was by your side i knew i would be alright
you gave me strength to carry on with this fight.
but now, as i sit here and remember, i ask myself what will i do now?
who will i run to when i need guidance?
who will i talk to in the nights ashes?
i never knew the pain of losing someone until the day i lost you.
yes, in truth its been 6 months, i should be okay by now. but with fathers day approaching it feels like the pain in my heart wont go away.
you taught me how to live, you taught me never to give up.
i miss you so much with every beat of my broken heart.
you always told me, one day you will do the same as i do for my father. i never thought at 16 i could be under so much pressure.
i made the promise and i will keep it, by going to your grave and kneeling down on my feet will be more then i can take.
i already know what ill say
"happy fathers day daddy, i love you"
then the tears will come, like oceans of love.
i will tell you how Ive been and the many memories i will miss.
i will love you for all time.
my only wish is for you to see, that the girl you brought up is strong and not in need.
i wish for you to see that you can rest and not worry about me.
i wish for many things, i know your watching over me, i hope your proud.
i want you to rise up and see, that everything i do is for you my hero.
mistakes i have made only ease what i know, but i know ill go far in this life and i owe that to you.
to you my dad, i love you.
no need to worry about your only daughter.
no need to look down and see my pain
i want you at peace with your family.
ill be okay soon enough
one thing you always taught me, the fight is never gone.
my strength i get from you, in my heart i know this is true.
in heaven I'm sure you are, resting up upon a star.
soon ill join you in total bliss
and together we shall meet again.

Rip, dad,
1/3/10. </3