Believe

I don't think I can do this without you anymore,
I'm still scared that you are going to walk out the door.
I thought I could succeed in pushing you away,
I guess I have to understand that you are going to stay.

I guess its about time I believed in you,
I'm just scared, because I dont know what to do.
I don't know how long I can continue to pretend,
I just don't want to tell you, I want everything to end.

I don't understand why you are still here,
I'm still having trouble believing that you actually care.
I want to say thank you for not turning your back on me,
I just never thought talking to you would be so easy.

I know I always say this but I am really sorry,
For telling you all this stuff, I really don't want you to worry.
I know I have no control on how you feel about it,
But I honestly never though you would care, I am sorry to admit.

I am learning to trust you, more than I ever thought I could,
You are beginning to understand more than I ever thought you would.
You are trying your best, even when you don't know what to say,
I just want to say thank you for listening and not going away.

You have no idea how much your friendship means to me,
I know I don't show it when I ignore you so easily,
I do it so you have a chance to leave,
But you never take it, so why can't I believe?

I need to realise that I can't do this without you,
Maybe you are the one that's going to help me through.
I don't want to put any pressure on you, I hope you understand,
I truly appreciate you offering a helping hand.

I don't really know, what else to say,
I'm just glad you haven't decided to walk away.
I know I always apologize; I just don't want you to leave.
It's going to take some time, but I just have to believe.