In September of 2010, I was inbetween two major hospitalizations. I was trying to keep up with school, but in order to graduate, I forgoed everything to get to that moment. Getting adopted, attempting to have a lovelife, I had to put those on the backburner for the one moment I knew I needed to have so I could have that moment with my friends. Graduating on time with them. I had a huge crush on my best friend, Jacob. Like, huge huge huge. And still do. He wanted to date me and a guy at the same time, and I wasn't happy with that. I like being monogamous. I didn't think, past him, that my heart could heal. It did 7-8 years later, when I wished really hard at a Catholic Church my stepmother brought me to (ironically she's a really cool stepmom -- Cinderella deux ex machina prizmatina) -- and that's when I met my dream guy I had in highschool, except it was a few years later than I expected. LOL. Hmm, the situation I can say now... a former friend who went full out lesbo for me, who got engaged to my huge huge huge crush after cheating on the guy I hooked her up with who raped her around the same time, wrenched my twins from a situation I was pretty sure couldn't possibly be remedied. I know exactly where they are and who they are and that's kind of the cool part... :) <3

I didn't believe that everything would come back that was lost. But I'm starting to, after seeing all the good things Jesus is doing for me to heal my broken heart and open it to eternal love.

I am going through some stuff today, where the flames are getting higher and higher on trying to kill me alive, from all the dumb things Satan has tried to do to me. I am not anyone's voodoo doll or horcrux. Jesus gave me everything he had so I could give him everything I had. I truly believe he is a loving soul.