He once asked me, while he was still dating her....
do you still about me....?
i still did...but i said no. i always thought that he would be happier with someone else thats not me.
3 months latter.
he asked me if i still loved him....
i still did..but i still said that i only cared about him only as a friend...
i wanted him to tell me so much that he still loved me,
so much....thats all i needed was one time of those late night phone calls for him to tell me he still loved me while being with her....but i never did...get that from him....
he called me 3 months after and ask me "what was the sweatiest thing iv ever said to u.."
for this i didn't have to lie,
i love you was something i never believed him to mean..so i told him i couldn't remember..he went on to tell me that his girl at the time told him it was when he first told her "i love you"..
it was then when i knew he was no longer mines..
he used to call me once ever 3 months to just talk to me when he felt lost, broken or needed to feel loved by someone...he never knew that every time he called me he broke another healed piece of my heart that i had just been able to heal back up...ever time we talked it seemed to be about me and him...and the what ifs...
i waited for nights, nights, nights for him to just call..just so i would know that he still remembered me, remembered use...every time he called hurt more because he talked about her to me but had always compared her to me ..
the sweetest thing he ever told me was that had always be there for me...
he once told me that he'd love me..his kind of love never last..
he promised to never leave me, and to always be there....so why its he here...
(still editing just wanted to get it out of my head)
