What you mean to me

The first time I saw you I really didn't noticed anything special about you at all.
As time passed all of the sudden I start noticing how funny, nice, cute and adorable you were.
You made everyone laugh with your silliness and jokes.
We got to know each other as the year passed and you turned out to be one of the few people that could bring a smile to my face when ever I was sad or upset.
We hung out a few times at the library moments that will be impossible to forget, and those long talks on the phone.
All of the sudden I felt confused about my feelings for you. I don't know if what I felt was love or just a simple crush that Ill get over soon.
The days passed and I found myself thinking about you more often.
You were always in my head and I couldn't you out no matter how hard I tried.
When ever we talked on the phone I felt a big weird feeling in the pit of my stomach,
You made me smile when I was down and when I had family problems you always knew how to cheer me up.
I kept asking myself questions about what I felt for you but I couldn't find any real answers, all I found was your picture in my memory.
Then I found out that you were moving, and that was something that came to me as a real shock. I was so used to talking and seeing you almost everyday day that the days that I didn't see you sometimes felt like a haze.
Its been a couple of weeks since you've been gone, and I still think of you
I try so hard to forget you but I just cant, I want to say goodbye to you and let someone new in but right now I cant.
I feel like I should have told you all of this before you left, I wanted to, but I was scared and shy of what might have happened. Even though we were ONLY friends I wished that if you felt the same way it would've been something more, and you would've given me the chance to show you how much I care about you, and now I wrote this it made me realize that my feelings for you were more than what I expected and that I like you a lot. You could have been a simple crush that I like a lot but you were more than just a friend, you were my best friend that I could always count on. And no matter how far apart we are or the distance I will always no matter what be here for you