How I feel(Collab Jad ft. OYAY)

Let me tell what's on the back of my mind
wish I could post it on your front door like a sign
letting you analyze my insanity in rhyme
showing you how I spend all of my time
I release anger with each bullet I load
This time your going to reap what you sow
might as well forget what you know
You want make it to the next blow
I'm attempting to spill this emotions
without my minds total erosion
falsely accepting these notations
I'll kill you with later in that explosion
I strangle my thoughts of being in love
I live to low to feel so above
Besides I'm tarnished unlike a white dove
And I'll bury you deep with me under this mud
Now I'll express what I'm attempting to do
Though this might seem crude to you
We'll take all under and let them rot through
Until bones are left in that room
You may wonder who I am now
and may be wondering what and how
But I'll say it here nice and loud
This is how I feel inside this shroud

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I let JAD explain
Every single thang
Cause when i say something true
Somehow it gets changed
Someone didn't say it right
Or someone heard it wrong
I mean, just repeat the words
Just like your favorite song
Problems tear me down
But yeh I'm built better
I see some stormy days
But yeh that's just the weather
It's either now or later
It never stays forever
I see some sunny days
And they seem much more safer
Somehow I no they'll hate
On me because
They see who I am today
Compared to who I was
It's a big difference
Huge contrast
I ran the race, I'm first
I never finish last
I take three steps forward
You take two steps back
I'll always be one step ahead
You can see just were I'm at
My sight is on succeed
And I am in the lead
The life that once was hell bound
Now finally i am freed

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