Welcome to my Nightmare

Kneeling into my sanctuary
As my knees become sore
Blood dripping from my nose
As I cry on the bathroom floor
Vomit fills my mouth again
As the weight becomes too much
Repulsed by a simple thought
I remember every touch
Grabbing the knife
Putting it to my pale skin
Nothing will ever taste as good
As it feels to be thin
Push the blade down
Just another way to cope
When my world comes crashing down
And I have lost all hope
A line appears, and then another
Blood lost to keep me sane
The only thing keeping me alive
Is the amount of flesh from my vein
The discharge fills the toilet
For yet another night
Just one more day
When nothing goes right
Nights turn into mornings
Laying in bed staring into space
As the sun rises yet again
Light filling in the place
Some shadows don't leave
Once the sun has revealed
Some pain doesn't disappear
Even though the injuries have healed
Coming home to fights and yelling
As my body matches the night sky
Making up so many stories
So no one dares to ask why
The black and blue will fade
But the memories won't go away
I guess there are some sorrows
That are just meant to stay
I'm not thin enough, smart enough, good enough
I'll be the person you never care for
And each and every single night
I'll spend on the bathroom floor
And when the sun comes up
I'll put my smile on and pretend
Like my life is completely fine
Not saying how it is I fend
I'll just keep my mouth shut
So you never know what is there
And if you open up that door all I'll say is;
"Welcome to my Nightmare"