I scream

The nightmares seem to appear
But my screams are silent
No one knows what goes on in my head
And they sure wouldn't buy it
How do you move
When he doesn't have the strings anymore
You may have been his puppet
But he was your world
i want to cry every night
Every minute of every day
I want to scream at every person
That walks by or says hey
I want to punch every cop I see
Every person that put him in there
And yes that would include me
I want to be punished for what I did
I just cant let him sit there because of me
I didn't mean to ruin your life
I promised I was going to take care of you
that's all I ever wanted
Every one says it will all be ok
Its not ok, It will never be ok
Not until things go back to the way it was
But they tell me it never will...ever
If he cant come back to me
then what am I
Where am I suppose to go from here
You're gone
Just gone
And I really don't know if I'm going to get you back
Will god give him back to me
Probably not.......