Surrounded

So I'm on the phone again,

Trying to keep my thoughts straight

Thinking of him,

or thinking of you.

What does my heart think?

I don't know how to get out of this mess,

This horrible, yet great thought.

Which one?

Did I make the right choice?

Thinking of how things could be,

But my feature doesn't look so bright anyway.

Laying here,

Watching the stars,

Listening to your voice.

You think that you talk too much?

You don't talk enough.

I don't see how I haven't really

Made the real decision I want to yet.

I'm scared to make any move,

Like I'm surrounded by thorns.

Trying to break out of my comfort zone,

And do what I feel like,

And say what I feel.

I don't like this place,

I kinda feel like I'm trapped In my own little bubble.

Forget this,

I'm trying so hard.

I will never change,

Not for anything,

Not even if you tell me too.

I'm breaking,

Breaking through these thorns.

It hurts,

Yeah, I'll bleed,

But it'll all be over soon.

So just don't worry,

I'll be fine.

I don't see why you care

In the first place.

I'm my own kind,

I follow no one.

I'm slowly trying to break out,

Out of this shell.

And I'm slowly getting Better,

And having a better life.