Unsure

Bleeding inside of this lonely heart,
So many choices I don't know where to start.
My head is so cloudy, where do I begin..
Is there end to this pain, that I feel within

I am trapped in these walls of my house,
I yell and I scream but no one lets me out
I am here all alone to dwell on my pain,
When you are all out with everything to gain.

How do I live now that you are all gone,
you are the only ones that I have had for so long,
I only know how to be a mother to you,
when it comes to the world. i'm not sure what to do.

I know I need to change all of my life but how can I do
that, when I sacrificed my own life...
I just sit here all day, lonely as hell not sure what to do with myself.

How can I go out to get a job, when I quit school to be
your mom..
So many changes need to be made before I go crazy
from all this lonely pain...