Better Days _ - Not A Poem -

The stars look dull tonight. I wonder if you see them like I do. Everything was always so much brighter when we were 'together'. More Alive. I dreamed that you were gone a while ago. I was so naive to think something like that would never happen. I resent you for doing this to me but you did what you thought you had to. I understand that. I still have those cute messages you used to send me. I cant bare to delete them; they're my only evidence of the happiness you gave me. Though, I can't read them either; they will only remind me of what I've lost. I saved the message you sent me telling me we couln't be together, it seems like I've read it thousands of times over, I just can't bring myself to delete it. It's kind of pathetic that I've kept them, it's like my life depends on them. Sometimes I think it does because they still make me smile, and sometimes a smile is all I need to get through the day. I guess I can't erase the memories, but I'm not complaining. Sure I've given up on you, but I can't move on .. I'm in denial, I still ---- you. I'm not saying the word anymore. But f**k this, my eyes are starting to blur now. I hope this'll lead to better days ..