So confused on who i made myself into
and who God intended me to be.
Battling within myself
because i have both of the two extremes.
Should i let go and go crazy,
act like that little girl that is inside me?
Or do i let that 'mature' girl
inside of me
continue to take over.
That blank look of a stare
that always leaves people in wonder.
Keep that poker face on;
let no one know my real emotion.
Keep people at a distance,
it's for their own good.
But when i stare at you,
look into your eyes
you remind me everything i'm supposed to be.
You make me feel like i know
where i belong,
and that this facade is no longer needed.
Yet here i am,
turning away from you
and wondering again
in my head
if i am supposed to be
that tough woman for you,
or if i am supposed to speak
through my sweet silence
to provide that comfort and support
for you.
Just keep reminding me,
of all that we are.
And i'll stay with you.
