Fear of you

Why did I let you scare me?
I let you run over me day after day
Let you hurt me and bruise me
And throw me around in different in a different way

You said you didn't love me.
Told me you didn't care
I cut myself to get way from the pain
but fight you I didn't dare

I slowly came to the conclusion
That cutting was the only way out
That was my escape away from you
I still felt it without a doubt

The pain you caused I still carry
Even though its been five years
How do you get over something like that?
I still feel pain and have cry these tears

As I lay on my pillow
and cry till I'm asleep
I scream out loud in anger
Cause it hurts so deep.

You will never know the pain
That you have caused in such a short time
The life you have ruined
It should be a crime

I live with this fear
That you will come back and take me far away
from the world I have just become to know
I want you to know it wasn't okay

Its hard to let this go
The fear that you might come back
Its still very possible
I just wonder if your still on crack.

With my back against the wall
looking up to the sky
I hope that you may have changed
But for now I will say goodbye.