Feelings

How did all this happen? Always and Forever, Forever and Always? Either way you put it, shouldn't really matter. It should mean the same thing. What if its over and its no longer forever. What if it was over all along. Just this one thing that happened really hit the relationship like lightning.I don't think anyone understands how I'm feeling, not even me. I can't seem to stop this pain inside. I feel so empty, and broken, all alone. In a dark cold room. At least thats how I think I feel. But how could I listen to my self when I've already ruined everything else. I'm into a thousand pieces, and once I hear what the person that means the most to me has to say. I just got this strange feeling like its really over... And it's really not something I want to be feeling. Out of all the feelings in the world why this.?